How do you make decisions - with your head or with your heart? It's so tough to know what to do sometimes, even though I try to think things through reasonablly, try to consider that my feelings and my intellect are equal partners, and try to keep in mind that I really don't have control over the outcomes in my life.

I still want to be able to be certain - part of the problem is being aware of the many options, the ramifications of my choices - it makes me believe that if I'm just careful enough, everything will work out to be ok.

But sometimes, things really don't work out for the best... somethings really don't turn out to be ok... yet, that is what life is about sometimes.

If only I knew....

And isn't that the point afterall - to come to grips with the fact that I don't know and never will.

This dewdrop world,
it is a dewdrop world,
and yet, and yet....